Its all about giving. :)

 Hello, I'm still alive, the thing is, i have no idea how long i have put that title hanging without putting the inside. Long time i have not write, it's not that i lazy, it just that i forgot i have a blog. The title, its all about giving.  I bet, when i put that title, i have something to say about giving and how it will comeback, maybe. I forgot. But now, when i am here again, and see that title, i have a different thing to say about it all about giving. 

Fact is, everyone are born to give. The moment i out into this from my mom belly. My parents must have great joy of me safely, healthy being delivered. Aren't we all the joy to our parent. But, as we grow up, we stop giving. Maybe not entirely stop giving, just end up giving less, and start to take. Become a taker instead of giver. Its sad sometimes, especially when i read some news about a kid went and sue the parent for give birth to him without concent. It baffle me to think, what kind of lawyer accept that kind of case. 

Between the last time i wrote till this day, there were so many ups and down happen in my life. I lost my brother who is such giver due to heart attack. I miss him so much, on his funeral, so many people came to give the last respect. When you are kind, people know, respect you, and acknowledge you. After the funeral, i end up sleeping and wake up hoping all of it just a bad dream. But reality really hit hard, he is gone and never will i interact with him anymore. Al-fatihah to my brother and may god gave mercy to his soul.

Then, a few years later, i lost my dad, on the third day of syawal. No more will i hear the dad joke he make. Such a great dad to a lousy son like me. A loving husband to my mom. I miss him much.

Now i live with my mom and taking care of her, hoping to be good child for her.

Hei, not all bad things hapen during this period of time. A few years ago, i bought my first house for investment. For other, it might be small. But it is an achievement for me.

Well, i deranged from the title. Its all about giving, sharing is giving. Share happy moment, sad, experienced that happen. When it's resonate. It help. 

I wish i could give more. Living with my mom and give her what she need is the least thing i could do. I could never be able to repay her the way she been taking care of me. Giving all that i could to make her happy. But all the thing she wanted from me is for me to be happy, and to always pray to God and remember God, never to miss 5 times a day prayer and get a wife. Sorry mom, but  this 1 son of yours having a bad luck in relationship. 

To anyone who read this. If there is anyone. I pray that you have a beautiful life. And keep on giving. The truth is, giving gave happiness, the more you give, the more happy you get. Sometime, you will feel tired, but if you sincere, that tiredness turn satisfaction. Forgive. You can't spell forgiveness without give. As people said, forgive and forget. You give, then you get. Give what you wanna get. Give happiness and get happiness. 

By the end of the day. All well ends well. Hope you have the time off your life. 

cancer..:(

hello, just went back from hospital visiting my mom`s cousin`s son in the ward, he is diagnostic to have tumor inside his body, luckily it was an early detection, he just 17, heard story from his mom when he first heard the doctor said it, he was like very shocked and somehow in denial, he just want to go home and have problem accepting the fact  that he is sick, its been 2 week now that he is in the ward, he can`t speak now since the tumor grow at his voice box, at first the doctor thought that there`s an infection but after proper check up they`ll be doing some kemo thing. i don`t know, i was not there when the doctor talk to his mom,


the teacher and friends came to give support for him to stay strong,

i always heard cancer happen to people before but never thought that it could occur within the family, right now, it was a relative of mine, but who knows, maybe soon or later it could happen in my family, maybe me myself. this makes me think, we human are small in front of god, today we might be rich and healthy, but tomorrow, we never know, if god says it, it will happen, some people will have a mind set that this is god will and a test from god for us to stay strong, but some was so frustrated and start to blame god for it and question why, end up being a victim, to be responsible or be a victim, since that i am not in the shoe, i don`t know, but there is a time i imagined if i have cancer or aids, what would i do? the shocked and fear, god i pray to you, please give us strength to proceed on everyday life.

all well, ends well.

wait,.. what??

its been a while since i wrote again, you know what people said, practice makes perfect, some practice will make you master what you practice, here i am not practicing blogging but here i am again writing some more, so i understand that my blogging not perfect, since that i hardly blog, but guess what, even tho that i am not active in writing any thing, i got view, and somehow, i was like surprise and at the same time like, wow.. someone actually view my blog, and thank you for the viewer, you guys are awesome.

some of you probably have heard the say practice makes perfect, but do you know there are the continuation of it, which is be careful of what you practice.

so

practice makes perfect,
be careful of what you practice.

so, what can we understand of practice makes perfect? in order to understand this, we need to know what the meaning of practice first, practice is the thing we do over and over again, for example, if someone is a lawyer, instead of saying that he work as a lawyer, we can also said that he is practicing law, or some doctor practicing surgery, a soccer player practicing soccer and so on, the reason why we said practicing is that it was done over and over again, a muslim practicing praying 5 times a day even tho there also muslim that did not pray. and a blogger practicing blogging if he doing it over and over again. a good student practicing study and so on.. so, practicing is good when we do it over and over again, we will be good at what we do, it is good to practice exercise every morning, a skateboarder keep on practicing skateboarding in order to become a pro skateboarder someday, and most of the successful player of life, they struggle at first, but when they never give up and keep on practicing, they are like bill gates a successful people.

so, why is there another part say be careful of what you practice, it is simple, since we understand the meaning of practice is do thing over and over again, it is understandable that a lot of people practicing things that is not working for them, a shy person keep on practicing being shy, will be master at being shy, even tho he want to be socialize with people, practicing shyness from he was a child have limit his ability to get a new friend, coz he is the master of shyness, people who want to come early to work but have master sleeping late and master in waking up late. people who want to be success in doing business, but somehow practicing giving up, he is the master of giving up, and there is a lot of mastery have been done in by the society, the mastery of Facebook, be on facebook for hours, mastery of thievery, mastery of dishonest, mastery late appointment, mastery breaking up promises, mastery of beating the wife, mastery of being anger, mastery of laziness, mastery of want to be right, mastery of self condemning, mastery of keep apologizing, mastery of smoking cigarette, mastery of masturbation, mastery of watching porn, mastery of alcoholic abuse, mastery of controlling other people.and yet, practicing shit.

i was one the master of facebook, and then deactivete facebook since 5th of november 2012, since that i want to stop practicing facebook, i just want to deactivate it for a year only, but now i am a master of the internet, found a lot of other website, master of youtube.

so what is it that you guys practicing and want to stop doing it over and over again, hope you guys have the time of your life, cant wait the 5th of november.

peace out.

what makes me happy?

its been a very longtime that i have not put a single word in this blog, i would say, not many people would read my blog anyway, but what the heck, there were time that i feel like i have an idea of what i want to wrote, but then again, out of laziness, none was wrote,

so what makes me happy? what makes you happy? to understand happiness, lets first understand sadness, so what is sadness? what makes people sad? it is an obvious answer, when you hurt, you sad.. simple as that, when i was a kid, a rock hit my head, i sad then i cry. but crying sometime does not mean people are sad, sometime people are so happy of joy it move them to cry, and funny thing are, most of us does not realize this, when they sad, they actually smile, laugh just to hide their sadness, to show that they are not sad,

i am sad, got sack from my workplace, there is my friend, put a smile on my face, they know nothing about me, or i got dump by my girlfriend, i am sad, there also my friend, try to cheer me up, put a smile on my face, try to hold things together, got to be tough, smile will make me happy, but end up being a pitiful guy, or i got sack, there is my friend, tell them the story, cry if i want to, let everything out, and move on and find my self a new job, be happy, got dump by my girlfriend, cry, let everything out, thank god i am still alive, find another girlfriend, move on, find out what not working in a relationship and what work in the relationship, be happy til the rest of my life,

seriously, honesty is the best policy, stop with the fake smile, be honest to be happy,

e-Romeo....ah ha...

okay...ini hari korang yang membaca blog aku in luck..huh...kenapa?...sebab ini hari ada cerita baik..idea yang kejap ingat kejap lupa,..tetiba je ingat kembali,..hari ni aku nak cerita pasal, e-romeo...dengan kata len, electronic romeo,..tak pernah dengar kan istilah tu, yang ni aku baru cipta, sebab tu lah tak pernah dengar,.

e-romeo ni boleh lah dikatakan macam buaya internet,..klu dah ada e-romeo, mestilah nak ada e-juliet, a.k.a mangsa internet,..so, macam mana nak citer pasal e-romeo, ni, simple je, kat real life, dia takde gf, kat internet ni, tetiba je dia ni hot stuff,..nak kata kan awek keliling pinggang, tak kot sebab,..kat internet ni dia takde pinggang, so awek keliling sesawang lah..ha ha ha ha ha ha ha...tak lawak ek..okay,

so aku dah hilang idea pasal e-romeo ni,..apa2 hal, nanti aku sambung lagi...malas sebenarnya nak citer and tulis bolg ni..entah kenapa lah aku boleh terjebak ngan blog ni..aku pun tak paham..

just a feeling that i have never told you before..

hari ni aku tak ikut jadual,..aku pikir nak taruk idea len,, tetiba kena taruk idea len lak..

jadi macam mana aku nak mulakan menulis idea ni..okay lah senang citer macam ni lah,
benda ni khas ditujukan untuk seseorang, klu dia baca, baca lah,..klu tak, nasib lah..

awak tahu tak?mak bapak awak ajar awak bagaimana nak bertudung, supaya awak bertudung,.
 awak, saya tahu awak sudah mempunyai pandangan baru mengenai tudung,
 awak beraggapan tak semua org yang bertudung tu baik,..awak follow pandangan orang, yang mengatakan, mereka yang bertudung pun hancur juga, tapi kebanyakan yang bertudung pun baik juga,dan yang tak bertudung pun ada yang lebih baik dari yang bertudung,


awak dah pun mempunyai cara awak sendiri, awak tak nak bertudung, dulu awak pakai tudung, sekarang ni awak dah tak suka bertudung, awak dah lari dari awak yang dulu, awak mengikut trend awak dan rakan2 baru awak, dan untuk orang dan idealistik baru yang mengatakan baik bukan nya dari pakaian, tapi dari hati,.
saya faham maksud awak, awak nak tunjukan kebaikan bukan dari pakaian, tapi dari perbuatan awak, tapi awak sedar tak, dengan tidak memakai tudung, awak telah mengecewakan seseorang yang menyayangi awak dan juga orang yang sepatutnya awak sayangi lebih dari orang lain, awak tak tahu siapakah orang itu? orang itu ialah ibu bapa awak sendiri,. betapa sedih dan pilu nya hati ibu dan bapa awak melihat anak perempuan nya yang dididik dan dimanja kan, diberi ajaran tentang pemakaian tudung, tapi awak lupa tentang ajaran itu, tidak pernah kah awak fikir tentang perasaan mereka,..

saya taknak cerita pasal dosa dan pahala, sebab dosa dan pahala bukan saya yang tentukan, saya bukannya tuhan,..saya cuma manusia biasa saja, tapi cuma saya ingin awak menyedari tentang hati dan perasaan orang tua awak,..jikalau awak ingat kembali, tidak pernah awak keluar rumah tanpa memakai tudung, atas didikan ibu bapa awak bukan, dan apabila awak memasuki universiti, awak menemui rakan baru, disitu awak mungkin goyah sedikit, kemudian awak tamat pengajian dan bekerja, di tempat kerja, awak menemui pemikiran baru, awak menerima pemikiran baru tersebut seperti span dan terus menerima nya, awak cair dengan pujian mengatakan awak nampak cantik dan rambut awak sangat cantik, awak telah merasakan yang awak perlu menunjukan rambut awak itu, dan tanpa awak sedari, awak telah membuang hubungan dengan keluarga awak, awak lebih pentingkan hubungan kawan2 awak dan juga hubungan kekasih awak, awak tahu tak yang awak teluh membuat orang tua awak berasa sedih, setiap kali melihat awak keluar rumah tanpa bertudung, terpikir orang tua awak, apakah silap aku dalam mendidik anak ku ini? apa kah aku aku telah salah dalam cara mendidik anak ku ini,? setiap persoalan, bermain difikiran nya, dan awak tidak sedari,

awak sanggup buang keluarga awak? mengapakah jadi begitu? awak sangat mementingkan diri sendiri, awak tahu tak? awak nak tunjuk kan yang awak sebenarnya lebih baik, tapi setiap kali awak keluar malam, awak tahu tak, awak mengecewakan mereka,..awak mengecewakan adik beradik awak, awak yang dulu nya adalah harapan keluarga, apakah contribution awak kepada mereka? adakah wang ringgit cukup untuk mereka? mereka hilang awak, awak hilang mereka? penting sangat kah pandangan kawan2 awak tu? tak penting kah hati dan perasaan keluarga awak ni?

mak bapa awak tu, tak tentu sampai bila mereka akan ada kat dunia ni, tah esok, entah lusa, bila2 masa je akan ke rahmatullah, awak nak tunggu sampai masa tu ke baru awak nak bertudung semula? masa tu ke baru awak tak nak keluar malam? memang betul bertudung untuk menutup aurat, dan menutup aurat tu untuk allah, dan bila masa awak bertudung semula, ianya hendak lah kerana dia, tapi klu masa ibu bapa awak masih hidup ni, tak kan awak tak boleh nak senangkan hati mereka?

saya tak nak cerita banyak, saya tahu awak orang yang bijak berfikir, tapi kadang2, saya rasakan awak ni bodoh juga, entah lah, padangan saya ni, mungkin bangang pada pandangan orang lain, tapi mungkin juga bijak pada pandangan orang yang lain,.saya ni cuma manusia biasa, mungkin saya sudah tidak penting pada awak lagi, membuat kan awak mengungkapkan kata2 yang cukup pedih pada saya, jikalau awak ikhlas untuk minta maaf, awak buat lah apa yang awak patut lakukan,..saya tak nak terima sms bangang dari awak mahupun kata2,..awak nak tunjukan yang awak ni baik,,,tunjuk lah yang awak ni baik, sampai masa tu mungkin saya boleh maaf kan..

in the end, hope you have a time of your life....

okay, hari ni hari ahad

klu korang rasa apa yang aku tulis ni sempoi, ko baca lah..ha ha ha ha...tapi telinga korang akan bingit kali ni, pasal aku memasangkan video yang akan autoplay, yup...autoplay...alamak..korang boleh pause lah klu tak nak dengar video tu...anyway...hari ni takde apa yang aku nak cerita, semalam aku ada idea..tapi aku ingat aku nak save kan ia untuk hari ni..malang nya, bila sampai nya waktu hari ini,..aku terlupa idea aku semalam..

so biarlah aku cerita pasal satu perkampungan ini,..hmmm...patut ke aku menceritakan..tak yah lah...cerita ya agak lucah,..korang tak leh terima karang,...so meh lah aku cerita pasal zaman sekolah seorang brother ni,..yup, ianya penuh dengan prank mengenakan cikgu dan budak2 kelas lain,, mereka sungguh evil, budak setan punya prank takde menda pun..

1st prank yang aku nak ceritakan ialah sewaktu kelas jasmani kelas sebelah,..yup jasmani kelas sebelah..dengan giat nya brother ni dan rakan sekelas nya melonggok kan beg2 kelas sebelah di satu tempat, dan menindihkannya dengan kerusi dan meja kelas tersebut,..bila budak2 kelas sebelah balik je dari kepenatan kelas jasmani mereka..mereka terkejut tengok beg, kerusi dan meja mereka takde.?....

2nd prank, mengenakan cikgu pompuan,..well yang ni biasa je prank nyer..tak memudaratkan sesiapa je., kecuali cikgu pompuan tu punya hati dan perasaan..well, cikgu lelaki pun boleh terkena gak..tapi itu pun klu budak pompuan berani buat.., well nasib aku tak jadi cikgu..so pada hari yang aman,..tiba berlari bro ni pada mangsanya, yakni cikgu perempuan terbabit,(make sure cikgu tu cun ek) "CIKGU....! EMERGENCY CIKGU.." cikgu: apa yang emergency nya, bro: emergency lah cikgu...so berlari lah bro ni..cikgu ni pun ikutlah anak muridnya..sampai lah ke toilet,.."apa cikgu ni," saya emergency nak membuang pun nak ikut ke?"..kaco betul lah....! tak lawak...tapi bayangkan hati dan perasaan cikgu tu..boleh buat filem ni...dia follow sampai masuk toilet student laki...kuang kuang kuang...

well, cuma satu je bro ni...dia ni tak jahat,...cuma nakal je..SO, klu setakat nak gengster tu, tak payah lah..bikin semak je...jadi prankster lah best..he he he he he he...

anyway,..just a though of the day,..tak sangka boleh terkeluar gak idea ni..hope you have the time of your life..