cancer..:(

hello, just went back from hospital visiting my mom`s cousin`s son in the ward, he is diagnostic to have tumor inside his body, luckily it was an early detection, he just 17, heard story from his mom when he first heard the doctor said it, he was like very shocked and somehow in denial, he just want to go home and have problem accepting the fact  that he is sick, its been 2 week now that he is in the ward, he can`t speak now since the tumor grow at his voice box, at first the doctor thought that there`s an infection but after proper check up they`ll be doing some kemo thing. i don`t know, i was not there when the doctor talk to his mom,


the teacher and friends came to give support for him to stay strong,

i always heard cancer happen to people before but never thought that it could occur within the family, right now, it was a relative of mine, but who knows, maybe soon or later it could happen in my family, maybe me myself. this makes me think, we human are small in front of god, today we might be rich and healthy, but tomorrow, we never know, if god says it, it will happen, some people will have a mind set that this is god will and a test from god for us to stay strong, but some was so frustrated and start to blame god for it and question why, end up being a victim, to be responsible or be a victim, since that i am not in the shoe, i don`t know, but there is a time i imagined if i have cancer or aids, what would i do? the shocked and fear, god i pray to you, please give us strength to proceed on everyday life.

all well, ends well.

wait,.. what??

its been a while since i wrote again, you know what people said, practice makes perfect, some practice will make you master what you practice, here i am not practicing blogging but here i am again writing some more, so i understand that my blogging not perfect, since that i hardly blog, but guess what, even tho that i am not active in writing any thing, i got view, and somehow, i was like surprise and at the same time like, wow.. someone actually view my blog, and thank you for the viewer, you guys are awesome.

some of you probably have heard the say practice makes perfect, but do you know there are the continuation of it, which is be careful of what you practice.

so

practice makes perfect,
be careful of what you practice.

so, what can we understand of practice makes perfect? in order to understand this, we need to know what the meaning of practice first, practice is the thing we do over and over again, for example, if someone is a lawyer, instead of saying that he work as a lawyer, we can also said that he is practicing law, or some doctor practicing surgery, a soccer player practicing soccer and so on, the reason why we said practicing is that it was done over and over again, a muslim practicing praying 5 times a day even tho there also muslim that did not pray. and a blogger practicing blogging if he doing it over and over again. a good student practicing study and so on.. so, practicing is good when we do it over and over again, we will be good at what we do, it is good to practice exercise every morning, a skateboarder keep on practicing skateboarding in order to become a pro skateboarder someday, and most of the successful player of life, they struggle at first, but when they never give up and keep on practicing, they are like bill gates a successful people.

so, why is there another part say be careful of what you practice, it is simple, since we understand the meaning of practice is do thing over and over again, it is understandable that a lot of people practicing things that is not working for them, a shy person keep on practicing being shy, will be master at being shy, even tho he want to be socialize with people, practicing shyness from he was a child have limit his ability to get a new friend, coz he is the master of shyness, people who want to come early to work but have master sleeping late and master in waking up late. people who want to be success in doing business, but somehow practicing giving up, he is the master of giving up, and there is a lot of mastery have been done in by the society, the mastery of Facebook, be on facebook for hours, mastery of thievery, mastery of dishonest, mastery late appointment, mastery breaking up promises, mastery of beating the wife, mastery of being anger, mastery of laziness, mastery of want to be right, mastery of self condemning, mastery of keep apologizing, mastery of smoking cigarette, mastery of masturbation, mastery of watching porn, mastery of alcoholic abuse, mastery of controlling other people.and yet, practicing shit.

i was one the master of facebook, and then deactivete facebook since 5th of november 2012, since that i want to stop practicing facebook, i just want to deactivate it for a year only, but now i am a master of the internet, found a lot of other website, master of youtube.

so what is it that you guys practicing and want to stop doing it over and over again, hope you guys have the time of your life, cant wait the 5th of november.

peace out.

what makes me happy?

its been a very longtime that i have not put a single word in this blog, i would say, not many people would read my blog anyway, but what the heck, there were time that i feel like i have an idea of what i want to wrote, but then again, out of laziness, none was wrote,

so what makes me happy? what makes you happy? to understand happiness, lets first understand sadness, so what is sadness? what makes people sad? it is an obvious answer, when you hurt, you sad.. simple as that, when i was a kid, a rock hit my head, i sad then i cry. but crying sometime does not mean people are sad, sometime people are so happy of joy it move them to cry, and funny thing are, most of us does not realize this, when they sad, they actually smile, laugh just to hide their sadness, to show that they are not sad,

i am sad, got sack from my workplace, there is my friend, put a smile on my face, they know nothing about me, or i got dump by my girlfriend, i am sad, there also my friend, try to cheer me up, put a smile on my face, try to hold things together, got to be tough, smile will make me happy, but end up being a pitiful guy, or i got sack, there is my friend, tell them the story, cry if i want to, let everything out, and move on and find my self a new job, be happy, got dump by my girlfriend, cry, let everything out, thank god i am still alive, find another girlfriend, move on, find out what not working in a relationship and what work in the relationship, be happy til the rest of my life,

seriously, honesty is the best policy, stop with the fake smile, be honest to be happy,